||[Oct. 5th, 2005|04:24 pm]
that i'm always going to be completely sidetracked. i couldn't sit and concentrate through school, so i quit, and i can't here at work. my messy room is a testament to my incapacity to start something and finish it. ... unless it's sex or a beer. i'm good at concentrating on those and following through. i've tried ADHD medication that didn't help... i've tried meditation which does calm my mind but only when i remember to do it and have the time it takes to do it right. ya, so i'll be like this for the rest of my life i think. it's not so bad, i just can't finish a book and my environment is always messy. any food i buy and don't eat right away goes bad. so many cool friends get ignored. ; ( hmm, but i don't ever get bored, and i have 3065 phun hobbies.... should i be looking into my future and be concerned? i'm not really... cause i'm too busy doing everything.